Mama

Never have I once thought that fitting more than one character into one person is possible but just like always, you're the only one who had the guts to prove me wrong. In you I found a bestfriend, a playmate, a storyteller, a child, a sister, a dad, and most especially, a mother. You have had your fair share of ups and downs but instead of letting your problems drag you down, you made them your wings for you to be able to fly higher and who would've thought that you have enough strength to take me with you in your journey. Whenever I felt like the world has turned its back on me, you're always there guiding me like you did when I took my first steps as a child. You're optimism and hope has helped me to treat my problems as pebbles that I simply walk on and leave behind. You have always been there to support me on my glory days and catch me when the sun just doesn't shine on me.

I may be growing older but I will always be that kid who asked you to sing me nursery rhymes before going to bed. I will always be the kid who drags you to Jollibee to get my daily fix of Chickenjoy. I will always be the kid that you have to wake up so hard in the morning. I will always be the kid that listens to every word that you say and try to apply your lessons every single day of my life. I will always be the kid that will tell you to tone down your voice when you get too excited about things. I will always be the kid that asks you to hug me in the middle of the night just because.I will always be the kid who's proud of her mama .I will always be your baby girl, mama. And whatever happens, you will always be the number one mama in the whole world. You will always be the mama that I look up to and fight for even if everyone's bigger than me.

Never in a million years will I exchange you for any other woman in the world. I love you for all that you are, mama.

Happiness Is...

    1. Being able to conquer my fear of fireworks

    2. Calle Crisologo

    3. Friendship bracelets

    4. DIY friendship bracelets 

    5. Sleepovers with your cousins

    6. Receiving a sewing kit from your mum

    7. Friends who teach you how to ride a longboard. 

    8. Discovering music on 8tracks

    9. Reminiscing highschool memories 

   10. Good night cuddles with momma. 

Ready or Not

I've been putting off this post for quite some time now as I haven't really gotten over my "College blues" but here I am typing this away with a throbbing head hoping that somehow, this might be the answer to my sadness.

I've always been excited with the thought of me entering college and having a taste of what it's like to be away from home but I never really got a good grasp of what it really feels like. To me, college was an escape from a monotonous life in the province. And yes, I've heard all those "scary" stories regarding college like: Terror professors, sleepless nights, research papers, having to go after your profs instead of the other way around, being away from the family, homesickness. I've got them memorized but none of them really bothered me. I was so eager to get out of highschool that I never really realized how fast time could be.

Now I'm almost a month away from entering what I once saw as "paradise" and I'm not quite sure whether I'm excited or scared out of my wits. I always stuck to my mum like glue and now all of a sudden, I'm being thrust into a world where I'm forced to suddenly stand on my own. The least I can do when I'm having problems is to call my mum and spend hours pouring it all out on her. I'll have to take care of myself and be even more responsible now. Aside from that, I'd have to be brave enough to throw my shyness out of the way to be able to make new friends and meet new people. But still, I'm counting on my old friends to get me by the inevitable lonesome days.

So I guess everything I'm feeling right now is my reflex reaction with the unexpected. I've opened up to my cousin about my worries and I trust that I'll be able to adjust in more ways than one hopefully sooner than expected. It's scary and gut-wrenching but I'll get by, right?